It really sucks when it's very hard to dictate what is good for your heart and worst when you have no choice but to go through it.
A Friendly Reminder to Self
Unfortunately, even acting and thinking so hard that someone is dead to you is very difficult.
Prayers' Protection
I truly believe it's true. My faith has a big portion of my being. Prayer is always my weapon to battle hardships. They said it's what governs the Supreme King.
Lately I have been in the worst part of my life.
I have learned a lot from the struggles these past 2 years to be specific. I have been trying to regain the normality of understanding one self again. It is not right to keep all emotions for the sake of pleasing someone, it is okay to be angry for what certain people has done to me.
I learn that revenge is not the key and if it weren't because of my faith, I wouldn't be able to control myself nor proceed to it. I Let the Almighty do the rest, He knows better and indeed I was able to see these people taking their karma. If the people who have hurt me know that it's part of their consequences, they will fear more if they know..
Lately I have been in the worst part of my life.
I have learned a lot from the struggles these past 2 years to be specific. I have been trying to regain the normality of understanding one self again. It is not right to keep all emotions for the sake of pleasing someone, it is okay to be angry for what certain people has done to me.
I learn that revenge is not the key and if it weren't because of my faith, I wouldn't be able to control myself nor proceed to it. I Let the Almighty do the rest, He knows better and indeed I was able to see these people taking their karma. If the people who have hurt me know that it's part of their consequences, they will fear more if they know..
Another Attitude Upgrade
So I was pondering on this lately (it's raining heavy outside after all). I get to talk to a few foreign guys recently and they all said the same thing about "b*tches". It's kinda sad just because they can't get laid they call these women as b*tches. I thought this slang term is only applicable to girls who deserves it, now they use it to women who stand on their ground and refused to be played at too. Truly sad.
Attitude Upgrade
Some people are just too insensitive... It could have been better if people has smart notification alert as to why they are treated oddly. That won't definitely leave them wondering.
He Says
Well I think Tony Gaskin just nailed it and my thought too is that I can never classify a guy as a man if he needs more than 1 woman to stroke and satisfy his ego.
Picture Telling
Yes I'm sure missing myself but on the lighter side, I sure have learn a lot. I may have lost those certain part of me, cost my identity's sanity but I gain a lot from it.
Text Messages
Talking about people who only text, message or call you when they need something from you. It's true, trying to be sorry sometimes just make them realize they should respect other people's business too. I'm probably starting to appear rude to them but what can I do? Toxic people needs to be kicked off more these days.
Hormone Chaos
"Please don't tell me things like that, I am not more than a friend nor a friend to you, never been. If you care about me not getting hurt over the expectations I felt because of those words from you, please be kind. I'm not a robot."
I can't believe these lines were all over my thoughts these past few days. It's probably just hormone chaos taking over.
I can't believe these lines were all over my thoughts these past few days. It's probably just hormone chaos taking over.
Life Must Go On
Today I let go of someone. Some people aren't just willing to sacrifice to make things work. No matter how I try to let them understand, they're wired to be that way. It's sad. They look at you as controlling just because they don't care about your boundaries. We can't reason out to people who lacks empathy and compassion.
